Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Losing Faith and Faith Losing Me

This whole debate has brought up my journey with my faith:

I was baptized at the age of 2 months old. My faith was chosen for me already and I obviously couldn't have my say. I grew up going to one church every once in a while and I went to a Christian school for kindergarden. I probably would have kept going with Christian schooling if the school hadn't shut down. I knew and believed in God my whole life. Once my mom got married and I moved in 6th grade, going to church every once in a while turned into not going at all.

Moving brought on a new family, school, and a bunch of complications. Understanding God was a struggle. Up until high school, I went to church for friends, cool activities, and fun. Not for my faith, even though that's what I thought it meant. I went to church camp for two years and started to understand God again.

High school was just church after church until I stopped going my junior year. And honestly, that was one of the worst years of my life. I started to lose faith in God and I honestly thought he had lost faith in me. I started taking the side of science rather than the Bible because I didn't believe that everything in the Bible was true, and not everything God is was true. Until my senior year I didn't want to go to church, and I didn't want to be happy. Then one day during my last year of high school, I just decided to be happy, and suddenly God showed up in my life again.

I never read the Bible as a kid, and never memorized the stories, or hymns, or verses. So coming to a Christian college where everything is based off of that I get stumped a lot. But now I'm learning and making connections and it's great.

When that whole evolution vs Christianity debate came up in class it reminded me of how much science had an effect on my faith and how much of a debate it is in my mind, not just around the world. Now I don't believe in evolution, but I do believe in science. Coming to this school has and is going to help me with setting things straight in my mind. And I thought I would share this with you all.

1 comment:

  1. " I started taking the side of science rather than the Bible because I didn't believe that everything in the Bible was true, and not everything God is was true. "
    I'd love to hear more explanation of this and how it played out in your life. To me, science and the Bible are on the same side, or at the very least, they don't "take sides." (Though some scientists may not be on the same side as the Bible, or rather, they take a stance on the opposite side rather than being neutral.) But I'd love to hear your experiences with this!

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