Today was a very confusing day. It was an angering day. It was an upsetting day. No one should see what I witnessed today.

And yet. I’m aware as to why he showed what he showed. It’s necessary. Everyone needs to see it. I say no one should see it, but I also know everyone actually should. Its important. It’s reality. Its what happened and therefore we need to know about it. Part of the reason we have to know about it is so history does not repeat itself.

If you don’t acknowledge the bad, how can there be good? If you never feel extreme sadness, how can you also feel happiness?

Why would God allow that to happen? What a tough question. Is there really an answer for it? Although, can the question even be, “why did he ‘LET’ it happen?” Maybe the question should be, “why did we let it happen.” God knew it would happen. He wasn’t happy about it….. but I can’t stop thinking that he let it happen. Why?

The other videos and the song were very thought-provoking and emotional. But that last one trumped them. I walked in to class excited for what was going to happen. I had heard so many people say be ready for today, it’s a big one. But that’s not what I wanted. I walked out depressed. Pissed. Confused.

And yet I walked out knowing more about myself. I learned a valuable lesson in my misery and confusion.

Never forget