Life and Comedy

I LOVE comedy, I live for comedy. I personally don't find myself very funny but I yearn for funny movies, funny shows, funny people, and in the future I would desire that my husband be a funny guy.

As someone who has suffered, and continues to suffer, a lot of negativity from past issues and mental issues, humor is one of the things I crave. I try to seek out comedies that can actually make me laugh. Funny videos and funny cartoons always make me smile and feel entertained and like I totally didn't waste time watching them. However as the years have gone by it's been harder and harder to make me full on laugh out loud primarily with any visual media. 

I also crave comedy for another reason. Despite suffering through what I do I keep a stern belief that's along the lines of "just get over it" even though I know personally it isn't that easy, however I believe that feeling depressed or being mopey requires merely a level of mental decision to put your foot down and say I'm not going to take this anymore, it sucks and I'm going to deal with it instead of sitting here and whining. However there are times when I get so deep into a hole that I can't reach that breaking point where I can shrug off the pain. In a recent breakdown I had I was so miserable and angsty that I just wanted to create an angsty piece of work and post it, but once it was posted I felt so much better. (pictured below)

I believe I felt better because I just needed to be real with people and be like yo I'm really feeling like crap here. But once it was posted not only did I feel better, but I felt that the wall that was keeping me from reaching that breaking point of shrugging it off was gone, and I was able to look at the present situation differently. Getting back to the comedy, it kind of traces back to what Leeper said on the first(?) day (or it was one of the first days) about how one should embrace the tragic truth of life in order to fully enjoy it. I realized after creating a negative piece, that I felt much better instead drawing a humorous cartoony portrayal of me being angsty. (pictured below)

So I guess my point is, I crave comedy and to be comedic because rather than sit in a dark corner being dramatic and feeling sorry for myself and others, is it not more fun to be honest and make humorous drawings or videos to really all in all make fun of the truthful tragedy that is life?

Being honest about the tragedy of life is a great relief, and poking fun at it makes it all the more sweeter of a deal.